a ten page research paper
edit two short film projects
shoot and edit my reality tv show
translate a interview for Maya’s documentary
help zach with his project
memorize twenty art pieces, the artists and time period
let’s do this. spring quarter, I’m so done with you.
I’m tired of this B.S. yes, no more.
I’m not talking to you. It is too stupid of me and I know better.
I know better
Where is it?
Where is my best friend? The funny and quirky one who listens to the same music I do?
Where are my buddies? Those who always make me laugh and forget about how stressful school has been?
Where are my friends? Those who just want to hang out with me?
Where are those people? So I can be there for them and make them laugh so they’ll forget their problems for a while?
Life is not supposed to be about loneliness. It sucks not having friends like that. I live in a world where the maximum I’ve got was acquaintances.
I don’t have any more patience for small talk or “hi” and “bye” here and there.
So many epiphanies in one week.
My brain is tired.
As vezes eu fico imaginando um mundo alternativo, onde todos os meus amados amigos (poucos) se conhecem e moram perto de mim. Acho que aí eu teria uma plataforma pra me expressar como quem eu realmente sou. Mas por que eu preciso dessa plataforma? As vezes eu queria ser suficiente pra mim mesma. Queria conseguir me expressar 100% sem ter que depender de ninguém. Somos todos individualistas num mundo que precisa de unidade.